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For those who play Monster Hunter Rise Sunbreak and really liked the Urgent Quest: Gathering of the Qurio from Master Rank 5, I made a mod attempting to bring it back. Unfortunately, I couldn't find some files linking some of the assets, settings and messages, but still some main aspects of the quest are there like some red glowing dots visual effects in the camp site, some speeches from Fiorayne, the dead animals, and the main attraction, the Afflicted Lunagaron. So please, check it out and tell me what do you think about the mod.
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Vent and suicidal thoughts
2 min read
I don't know anymore. I have been suffering practically everyday. I can't find the reason and I can't find how do I suffer. I tried thinking about it everyday., I tried reading about it, I tried going to the therapy... nothing works. I can't figure out. I think in dying practically everyday also. When I go through all my process in how I live, what happens and what do I do, I feel like if I'm in a dead-end street and that the only answer for me is to die. There is no reason for I live if I just suffer everyday and everything I try doesn't work. Besides that, life has no meaning. We just born, do random things. There is no objective for us to be here. I just want everything to fade out and finally end this non-waking nightmare, in which I can only wake up after dying. I'm afraid of the pain, so I don't have the courage to try anything. But I don't care about here anymore. People who love me, all the things I got here are just material things that will only stay here. I don't know what to do anymore.
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[vent] I wanna let it out
2 min read
Hello..... hello.....
I'm that cat who usually posts some naughty anthro drawings. I want to leave this here just to flow the suffering out of me. If you want to read, thanks.
Talking about cats................. I have a strange dillema with cats. My fursona is a cat. But I feel my male cat is a jerk who likes to tease me. Nowadays, he's not doing much, but he pours his own water, letting it vaporize to the skies which rained tonight in Belo Horizonte, MG, Brazil (09/28/2017). Why does this piss me off? Irrational feelings I should be able to manage, but since this world is a well of disgrace, I can't.
Before this same cat used to jump on the furniture, which I couldn't handle, because I thought it was unhygienic. He peed on the sink and in one bathroom. He fights with a white cat, making noise and leaving me uncomfortable by the violence and anger waves. He meowed, crying, at night, waking me up. While the female cat is a saint.
Society.... siiiggh, the famous and fabulous society..... (This is already getting long, right? People don't want to read one million words about someone who thinks his life doesn't matter...)
I can't tollerate teases, "humor" (the kind I don't understand), humiliation and annoying acts towards me, even thought I can be a hypocrite, doing all these too.... but I'm not sure what is true and what is not. I can't, also, impose my feelings and necessities, not knowing to say no and accepting the tortures people do to me. People criticise me, people do whatever they want with me (was bullied by my niece and by young girls, because of this) and I can't set what's important to me and what do I need.
I don't know anymore what's right and what's wrong. Can't discern which feelings, acts and thoughts are correct and which are not.
By the way, today (09/29/2017) I'm not sleeping, and it's 01:54 here (24h clock). I think I have insomnia, and I don't wanna try to sleep. I think I have depression too, but for some reason I was never diagnosed or made tests to see if it's true or not.
I'm that cat who usually posts some naughty anthro drawings. I want to leave this here just to flow the suffering out of me. If you want to read, thanks.
Talking about cats................. I have a strange dillema with cats. My fursona is a cat. But I feel my male cat is a jerk who likes to tease me. Nowadays, he's not doing much, but he pours his own water, letting it vaporize to the skies which rained tonight in Belo Horizonte, MG, Brazil (09/28/2017). Why does this piss me off? Irrational feelings I should be able to manage, but since this world is a well of disgrace, I can't.
Before this same cat used to jump on the furniture, which I couldn't handle, because I thought it was unhygienic. He peed on the sink and in one bathroom. He fights with a white cat, making noise and leaving me uncomfortable by the violence and anger waves. He meowed, crying, at night, waking me up. While the female cat is a saint.
Society.... siiiggh, the famous and fabulous society..... (This is already getting long, right? People don't want to read one million words about someone who thinks his life doesn't matter...)
I can't tollerate teases, "humor" (the kind I don't understand), humiliation and annoying acts towards me, even thought I can be a hypocrite, doing all these too.... but I'm not sure what is true and what is not. I can't, also, impose my feelings and necessities, not knowing to say no and accepting the tortures people do to me. People criticise me, people do whatever they want with me (was bullied by my niece and by young girls, because of this) and I can't set what's important to me and what do I need.
I don't know anymore what's right and what's wrong. Can't discern which feelings, acts and thoughts are correct and which are not.
By the way, today (09/29/2017) I'm not sleeping, and it's 01:54 here (24h clock). I think I have insomnia, and I don't wanna try to sleep. I think I have depression too, but for some reason I was never diagnosed or made tests to see if it's true or not.
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I'm sorry again
1 min read
If you payed attention you could notice I'm less active on DA these days. I am very busy doing lots of school things and work. So I'm very sorry about this. And when I can I try to post more things. I have lots of new drawings ready to send. So when I can I post for you guys.
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Sorry guys
1 min read
I'm not feeling like drawing these days. So I'm not posting much things... please, forgive me
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